I resolve...

• Don’t use credit card where you can use the debit card
• Don’t bunk work unless you absolutely have to
• Don’t drink coke or eat chocolates or even chips. Avoid gaining weight
• Keep the drinking to a minimum
• Read at least two books in a month
• No more retail therapy. Actually, stop buying clothes, shoes and bags altogether.
• Save majorly
• Learn the guitar
• Do horse-back riding
• Try learning Spanish, again
• Give up smoking
• Ideally, do not have anything to do with men for a year. Detox. Give your life some semblance of order
• Stop wanting to be in a relationship. It's all a lot of pain anyway
• Stop being impulsive and angry. So angry
• Keep up low-expectations-from-everyone bit.

It's that time of the year again

The unspoken

I need to go away, not give in again. It's a vicious circle i need to break out of because the love isn't strong enough to keep us together. Not forever anyway. And i want a forever with you, or nothing at all.


I wish i could tell you how much i love and miss you. From your silly smile, sarcastic smile to your mocking smile and the heartfelt laughter that i saw so little of. I miss everything about you and i wish i could have you still, like i had you once, a lifetime ago.


Remember how i once said you are an ocean, i am sand on the shore, we meet but aren't meant to be? Just to reiterate, i meant that. We are that. No matter how far they want to go, try, and do go, they come back to each other. The ocean will be fine but without it the sand would cease to be what it is. You define who i am. That's what you meant to me. That's why i came back running to you, and you never understood...